Some of the stuff you say on this blog is so off-the-wall I am wondering if it is some kind of deep troll game, some form of mockery or satire. But, taking what you say at face value:
On the thread for “My advice to White people” you said:
“Abagond, you have any advice for our obviously lesser [White American] culture and society? We are lesser now, but why must it always be that way? Can’t you forgive us in some good capacity? Why must we be the pathetic ones FOREVER. Aren’t we equal to you all?”
On the Open Thread you said:
“When will poc see me as more than a cancer cell (A, Origin, pumpkin), a joke (Herneith, sharinalr, taotesan), or a lemon (i.e. something to squeeze until the juice runs out)?.”
“What i am responsible for and how should i be accountable to it?”
“Where do i belong?, because conventional anti-racism dictates my peers as either whitewashed poc or whites who are assholes.”
You frame much of this under the ideas of cultural appropriation and White privilege.
I suppose you could, as much as possible, eat, dress, talk, think, dance and live like the people of England in the 1400s. That would be pretty much “pure” in your sense, the last English-speaking culture that was not screwed up too much by racism or cultural appropriation. It might give you some interesting insights on White American culture in the 2000s, in regard to racism and other things. But apart from that, who would it help?
Much better in terms of anti-racism is to learn as much about racism as possible. The most important part of that is listening to what a broad range of people of colour say, putting yourself in their shoes, taking what they say seriously, not making it about you and your feelings. If you make it about your feelings, it is going to get in the way of your understanding, you are going to get stuck, like you seem to be now.
Making it about your guilty feelings will likely make matters worse: it was guilt over genocide and slavery that led to racism in the first place. Not that you should push those feelings completely out of your mind. You need to come to terms with them at some level. But that does not mean they should take centre stage.
You say you do not have money for books, that your friends are heavily brainwashed by White racism, but there are libraries and the Internet. In the US, they have tons of stuff written by people of colour. (Note that American public education, film, television, magazines and newspapers are heavily filtered by Whites.)
Armed with that knowledge, you should talk to other White people about racism. They will listen to you way, way more than to, say, me. It is a part of their racism, the Five Rules of Racial Standing (see below for the link).
Abagond, July 27th 2015.
- Five Rules of Racial Standing
- growing up White American
- the feelings of White people
- Advice to White people:
- cultural appropriation
- White privilege
- people of colour
- An open letter to Zek on double standards