I wrote a post about the hearts of white people. One white commenter, Zek J. Evets, did not like it and called it racist. He did not simply disagree with the post: He wanted me to take back what I said and apologize! I did not. On his own blog he said this:
Ultimately, it hurts the cause.
And that’s how I feel. Sick to my stomach. Not just because Abagond and his groupies are saying offensive things about me, my family, and my friends who happen to be White and just because we’re White, but because their comments are only fueling the flame of racism in America — just like all the White racist trolls that spam this blog on a regular basis — even as they claim to be fighting against it! Their lies convince none but themselves.
There are at least two things wrong with this:
- It puts the feelings of white people above trying to understand the nature of white racism – which is what I was trying to do in that post.
- It forgets (or maybe never even considered) that I cannot wait till “the cause” tears down the walls of white racism. That day might not come for a hundred years – or ever. I got to live now. Here. In America, just as it is in 2011.
That means it is way more important for me to understand racism than to fight it. Fighting it comes second.
I have to see things as they are, as clearly as I can. I cannot afford the pretty lies that white people live by. They have cost me too much already and have taken me years and years to unlearn – and still I am not completely free of them.
So if I say something that hurts the feelings of white people, too bad. I am not writing for them. They can shut their eyes to this blog just like they shut their eyes to so much else. I am writing first for myself, second for black people and third for people of colour. That’s it.
There is no way I would be able to understand white racism by playing to a white audience and their tender feelings. Or their view of what is best for black people, something that has a terrible history.
In the past I did write posts aimed at white people, but I have pretty much given up on that. Most are beyond the power of my words. They are too far gone, even those who seem to get it, like Zek.
Which is why I am not holding my breath about white anti-racism succeeding any time soon.
Thanks to Hathor for the title of this post.